Dreams: November 2006


Dreams

Dreams are answers
       to questions
       we haven't yet
       figured out
       how to ask.
       ~X-Files

I am learning...

Thursday, November 09, 2006
Of all the learning in life, the most gratifying and truly rewarding is the learning that helps you become a good person.

We are so engrossed in fulfilling our ambitions, desires, winning over… that even one simple deed of goodness feels so overwhelming.

So, what is doing good things mean? My learning about life teaches me that any deed that is based out of expectation, reaction to something (good or bad) is not in the truest sense good. In our attempt to achieve big, we are essentially creating a conflict in the environment. And more ambitious we become, more insipid we get.

The worst effect of this is on –no one else- but ourselves. We end up pursuing the wrong things intently … and all at the expense of something so important – our inner peace.

This does not mean that we decay ourselves and do not reach out. Instead, we must prepare ourselves to lead life in a way that helps us to go to sleep with a smile and wakes us up with one – at the least.

It is far more encouraging when others discover our good qualities, without our help !

"O, call back yesterday, bid time return" - Shakespeare

Wednesday, November 01, 2006
I was always slow to eat... It would take my mother a lot of time, patience, anger management to see me finish my meals. But if I was sleepy, it was a completely different story.

For example - afternoon naps. My school timings were from 8am to 1:00 pm (or so). And when I would be back from school, I would be so sleepy - that I could finish my food in a gulp. Sleep made my most difficult task (eating food) easy...

That was then...

Today, I eat fast as it is. I take heed of every suggestion that doctors, wise people make - but I do not get sleep. I am insomniac.

I always write about time. To me, time is the biggest entity of all. Every moment of life, every word spoken, every action taken... gets cealed in the frame of time. However, one wants, one cannot resume an action from that frame, or erase something that has alread taken place. Time leaves us so vulnerable...

On second thoughts, time leaves us with hope ... hopes about good times that will come, and that bad moments of past will be forgotten, and hopes about a life that we dream of - after all, everything is just a matter of time.

It is for these dreams and hopes, I guess, God created Time - so that everything does not happen at once!